I haven't posted in a while, I know. I'm still alive. I'm still here. I still have this information, but I'm no longer sure I can share it. Because...because I used to think it was Us vs. Them. We were on one side and They were on the other and anyone who worked for Them was automatically against Us.
But what if that's not true? What if I have been working for Them all these years without even realizing it? What if there is no Us, what if there is only Them?
My mind reeled with that thought. I didn't want to think it was true. But some part of me, deep down, said: what have you ever done? what have you ever accomplished? what lives have you saved?
Have I saved lives? Or have I simply saved myself at the expense of others? Is that not what They do?
And so I sit here with this information and wonder if I should release it. Is that protecting others or self preservation? If I think I know things, is that truth or arrogance?
Is anything I say even right?